I was raised in a Christian home, but as I got older in life I started rebelling against God. I was caught up in things that I am not proud of. I was living my life for myself and not for God. It was after I met my wife that I started feeling a desire in me to change things in my life. I was feeling a pull on my heart that I was missing something. Come to find out that “something” was someone. I needed Jesus in my life.
God showed his never-ending love for us by sending His Son to live a perfect life in this sin-cursed world. Jesus hung and died on the cross to bear the sins of this world, mine included. I thank God that He opened my eyes and my heart, to see clearly now the price Christ paid on my behalf.
Before I truly knew Jesus or about the wonderful gift God has given us, someone once told me that people can’t really change their ways. I always had a problem with that because I thought people could turn from their sin. But I thought it was something they did themselves. I now know that it is only by God’s Grace that any change does happen. I realized this by looking back on my life and knowing that I, by my own doing, would have never turned from the life I was living. I thank God that he has chosen me to be a part of his kingdom. I pray that He gives me the courage to share this wonderful message with others.
When I was younger my family moved around a lot. My dad was in the army for a while and then worked at several different food manufacturing companies and transferred from plant to plant. We were never settled in one place for long. Finding a church home was hard.
As a child, we never talked about Jesus, read the Bible, or attended church regularly. As I got older and started learning about Darwin and evolution in school it seemed to make sense. But I still had unanswered questions. How could the only planet able to sustain life have happened by chance? And if we live and die here and that is the end, then why are we here? There is no hope for anything more than maybe 85 years or so. I knew earth couldn’t have happened by chance.
When I met Jon in 2003, he helped to open my eyes more. We started to attend a church some, but not real regularly. It was very large and hard to get plugged into. We decided that it wasn’t the church for us for different reasons. In 2008 we started attending Grace. It was in coming here and listening to the gospel week after week that transformed me. I am the type of person who dwells on things and worries about life circumstances. I had never been able to give my worries to God and trust that He knows what he is doing and that everything will be okay, until I became a believer. And it is such a relief. Everything in my life is part of God’s plan to bring me closer to Him. With Christ there is hope for much more than a few years here on earth. There is hope for eternity with Him if we accept Him as our savior.
I used to think that by being a good person with good morals I could earn a place in heaven. I know now that there is nothing I can do here on earth to deserve it. It is only by God’s grace through the death of Jesus that I am saved. I know I am a sinner and always will be, but I am trying to live my life more like Jesus and I know someday I will see the Truth face to face.