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I grew up knowing who God was, went to church all my life and was baptized when I was 11 but I was just going through the motions. I wanted to change the way I looked and the German Baptist church did that for me. I looked like a believer on the outside but on the inside I was broken and lost.
Because of past things that had happened in my life I wanted nothing to do with God. I turned to guys, partying and drugs. Anything I could do to prove just how much I hated god. Just to prove I could do everything on my own and be happy. And for the most part I was happy but it wasn’t a lasting happiness.
I always thought “when I have my life together and everything figured out THEN I’ll get right with god” or “when God actually shows me that he loves me then I’ll believe” but I was just running from God and straight to hell as fast as I could.
On September 21st at the True Woman conference I realized I’m never going to have it all together or figured out and that’s ok because God loves me right where I am at. At that moment He opened my eyes to His grace and love. He showed his love for me by sending his son Jesus to die on the cross in my place for my sins and rise again 3 days later so that I don’t have to be perfect or have it all figured out. God accepts me as I am, broken and lost. I now know that God sees me and he loves me and because of that I am made brand new.
Romans 10:9 says, “If you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, you will be saved.” So today I am getting baptized not to be saved because that has already been done but I am getting baptized as an outward confession of faith.
I asked God into my life at the True Woman conference as Joni Eareckson Tada sang these words… Amazing grace how sweet the sound that saved a wretch like me. I once was lost but now I’m found was blind but NOW I see.